"Fill up me cup with whiskey n' gin"
"FILL IT YERSELF YE BLACKGUARD"
"Grab hold the ropes and quiet yer din"
"TIE HIM UP TO THE MAST"
Cathal leaned against the aft balustrade and watched the shore of Taeghas diminish into the horizon. The shanty man, a grey-bearded tough with a surprisingly sweet voice, led the crew in song as they raised sails to catch the southerly wind. The Blasted Bosun was an old Anuirean song the young Fulcairn had heard many a time.
The cog was a deep bellied hulk called the Anora. Named for the captain's daughter, as the man himself had heartily proclaimed upon Cathal's boarding. The sun was hot as a fresh baked pie, the sky was sapphire blue and the line of coast a green so verdant it made his heart ache. The smell of salt and fresh caulk between the deckboards filled his nose. It was a beautiful day, but the breeze was cool, and he pulled his tawny cloak tight against the chill. It was the first time he had ever had the deck of a ship under his feet and he longed to be back on land, since perhaps that first journey so many years ago.
"They'll be fine, Lord Cathal, no use worrying." Dolan's drawl sounded from the stairs to the main deck.
Cathal turned to regard the mercenary. He had specifically ordered the man to stay in Fulcairn, to serve Cuinn in his stead. And here he was anyway. Should have checked the bilge before leaving port.
"I keep telling you all to stop calling me that. I'm not the lord anymore." Cathal said, "which you've obviously embraced in practice considering what my commands seem to be worth these days."
"Won't happen." Dolan's boots clumped on the deck as he crossed the poop to stand next to his lord. He was forcing a grin even though Cathal knew his stomach had to be churning.
"Mm." he intoned. "Rey..Cuinn," he was still stumbling over that, "is the most capable person I've ever met. And either of us worrying about Mara is an exercise in misplaced hubris to amuse the gods." he felt the lie as he said it. He always worried about Mara. And Cuinn, well Cuinn was a knot he might never untangle.
"We've got work to do up there, Dolan. Serious work. I've been a shade on the walls of Fulcairn for too long, and they deserve better. That's why I'm going. When I come back I intend to bring some light with me."
"Well you could start by lightening the fuck up." Dolan snorted. Cathal shot a look at him, Dolan shot it back, and pressed something to his chest. It was full of something else so potent it seared Cathal's nostrils.
"I mean it, oh great Not-Lord-Anymore Fulcairn. You've not had it easy I know, but your family loves your stubborn ass and I'm going to be hurling up my innards for a month and there are SO MANY TITS waiting for us in Hogunmark. TITS." the mercenary shouted, breaking the cadence of the sailors' song. A short chuckle broke from Cathal's chest in spite of himself. "So lighten the fuck up, for my sake if not your own." He punctuated with a thrust of the flask harder into Cathal's chest.
Cathal took hold of the leather container and looked into the mouth of it. When was the last he had enjoyed a drink? The tournament? Even the precious vintage Mara's parents had gifted him had tasted of ash. From the smell of it he was not sure he would enjoy whatever it was Dolan was trying to feed him if he wanted to.
"Come on. Eat your greens young lordling." Dolan said gruffly.
Cathal shook his head and rolled his eyes at the mercenary, but upended the flask, taking a deep pull. He regretted it almost instantly. It was as though Mara had sparked a conflagration in his throat. Dolan was bawling with laughter even as his hacking ceased. When his voice returned, it was hoarse and wheezing.
"What..." he struggled, "in Karasha's blessedly frozen hells was that?" He tossed the flask back at Dolan.
Dolan caught it and between laughs replied "I don't know. I just found it down there sitting in a barrel. It smelled spectacular." Dolan took a long swig from the flask, then exhaled sharply. "That IS rough."
The sky was dark and clouds pulled close
I searched the shores for you my love
"Out from Islien we coursed
For you for you I go my love
Away away away
Taeghan shores I know no more
Until my end of days
Our broad bright sheets snapped and pulled
The storm it whirled above and through
The captain called the bosun roared
For you each day I search my love
While peering o'er the waves
To you I will return my love
Before my end of days
Blue sky it broke through the clouds
And flinders all around
Blood and tack and shredded sails
I've seen isles of ice, leviathans,
The sea it calls to me my love
And every Taeghan heart
I thought, I thought for you my love
That we should have to part
For you, for you I left my love
I went so far away
Taeghan shores I knew no more
Now home, now home I sail my love
The winds follow my heart
And ne'er again, I swear my love
Shall we ever part
No, I'll die before we part.
The song ended with cheers and laughter. The crew of the Anora were Taeghan almost to a person, and that song had been one of the things that once bound their people, his people together. Perhaps it would be again. Cathal had stood during the song, and two of those who had first joined their voices to his had thrown arms over his shoulders and stomped out a rhythm on the deckboards. They slapped his back merrily, the scarred woman shooting him a not so coy glance, and went back to their posts.
"FILL IT YERSELF YE BLACKGUARD"
"Grab hold the ropes and quiet yer din"
"TIE HIM UP TO THE MAST"
Cathal leaned against the aft balustrade and watched the shore of Taeghas diminish into the horizon. The shanty man, a grey-bearded tough with a surprisingly sweet voice, led the crew in song as they raised sails to catch the southerly wind. The Blasted Bosun was an old Anuirean song the young Fulcairn had heard many a time.
The cog was a deep bellied hulk called the Anora. Named for the captain's daughter, as the man himself had heartily proclaimed upon Cathal's boarding. The sun was hot as a fresh baked pie, the sky was sapphire blue and the line of coast a green so verdant it made his heart ache. The smell of salt and fresh caulk between the deckboards filled his nose. It was a beautiful day, but the breeze was cool, and he pulled his tawny cloak tight against the chill. It was the first time he had ever had the deck of a ship under his feet and he longed to be back on land, since perhaps that first journey so many years ago.
"They'll be fine, Lord Cathal, no use worrying." Dolan's drawl sounded from the stairs to the main deck.
Cathal turned to regard the mercenary. He had specifically ordered the man to stay in Fulcairn, to serve Cuinn in his stead. And here he was anyway. Should have checked the bilge before leaving port.
"I keep telling you all to stop calling me that. I'm not the lord anymore." Cathal said, "which you've obviously embraced in practice considering what my commands seem to be worth these days."
"Won't happen." Dolan's boots clumped on the deck as he crossed the poop to stand next to his lord. He was forcing a grin even though Cathal knew his stomach had to be churning.
"Mm." he intoned. "Rey..Cuinn," he was still stumbling over that, "is the most capable person I've ever met. And either of us worrying about Mara is an exercise in misplaced hubris to amuse the gods." he felt the lie as he said it. He always worried about Mara. And Cuinn, well Cuinn was a knot he might never untangle.
"We've got work to do up there, Dolan. Serious work. I've been a shade on the walls of Fulcairn for too long, and they deserve better. That's why I'm going. When I come back I intend to bring some light with me."
"Well you could start by lightening the fuck up." Dolan snorted. Cathal shot a look at him, Dolan shot it back, and pressed something to his chest. It was full of something else so potent it seared Cathal's nostrils.
"I mean it, oh great Not-Lord-Anymore Fulcairn. You've not had it easy I know, but your family loves your stubborn ass and I'm going to be hurling up my innards for a month and there are SO MANY TITS waiting for us in Hogunmark. TITS." the mercenary shouted, breaking the cadence of the sailors' song. A short chuckle broke from Cathal's chest in spite of himself. "So lighten the fuck up, for my sake if not your own." He punctuated with a thrust of the flask harder into Cathal's chest.
Cathal took hold of the leather container and looked into the mouth of it. When was the last he had enjoyed a drink? The tournament? Even the precious vintage Mara's parents had gifted him had tasted of ash. From the smell of it he was not sure he would enjoy whatever it was Dolan was trying to feed him if he wanted to.
"Come on. Eat your greens young lordling." Dolan said gruffly.
Cathal shook his head and rolled his eyes at the mercenary, but upended the flask, taking a deep pull. He regretted it almost instantly. It was as though Mara had sparked a conflagration in his throat. Dolan was bawling with laughter even as his hacking ceased. When his voice returned, it was hoarse and wheezing.
"What..." he struggled, "in Karasha's blessedly frozen hells was that?" He tossed the flask back at Dolan.
Dolan caught it and between laughs replied "I don't know. I just found it down there sitting in a barrel. It smelled spectacular." Dolan took a long swig from the flask, then exhaled sharply. "That IS rough."
***
She stood and listened patiently as he read Fulgrim's letter, limned by the light of the hearth in Fulcairn's council chamber. Her expression was inscrutable, as it so often was. Her hair seemed afire with a warmth that almost never reached her eyes. He read quietly, without expression. He provided information for his lady, his liege, as was his duty. Freila Yngvi was gone, vanished, and Fulgrim invoked the pact between their houses to have Cathal return to Hogunmark. It was his duty as the queen's sworn huscarl to render council in such an event, and to be present to support her house. Cathal was still subject to the ancient oaths, and he must go north.
He did not speak of what he wanted. He was not sure he knew. He had a duty to fulfill, and Fulgrim was as much a brother to him as Corrac or Brynden had been. Yet he had a duty to his own house, to the Gorge, to Taeghas. He had a duty to her. He did not speak that he doubted he could be away from her side, or from their sister. That he did not trust that axe-woman to guard her life as well as he. That she needed his council for the conflict looming on their threshold. That despite all that had happened, he loved her still and would always, even as he rode the sky with Haelyn. Even if he could speak he knew he would simply make a fool of himself again.
He did not speak of what he wanted. He was not sure he knew. He had a duty to fulfill, and Fulgrim was as much a brother to him as Corrac or Brynden had been. Yet he had a duty to his own house, to the Gorge, to Taeghas. He had a duty to her. He did not speak that he doubted he could be away from her side, or from their sister. That he did not trust that axe-woman to guard her life as well as he. That she needed his council for the conflict looming on their threshold. That despite all that had happened, he loved her still and would always, even as he rode the sky with Haelyn. Even if he could speak he knew he would simply make a fool of himself again.
Her eyes pierced his soul as she casually leaned against the great table and listened. He could hide nothing from her, and she had moved on. It was time he did the same.
He spoke with a steady cadence, willing his voice to evenness, depth and gravity. His shoulders square and his back straight. His hair and beard had been brushed neat, his tunic crisp, even despite the late hour.
"I must go."
***"I must go."
The crew of the Anora, mostly men and women of an age with Cathal, were lounging about the deck now, partaking of their evening ration. Fresh produce and meat would be sparse in the coming weeks, so they went at it with gusto. They drank, those on duty sparingly, those not, with mild abandon. To be drunk was one thing, to be useless when needed was a heinous crime for any sailor. They had long ceased singing. Aye, once the sails were raised full and the ropes all neatly arrayed and belayed, the ship had shifted to the plain talk of sea-folk. What had been done while ashore, who had bedded whom, what news fell from what lips. The news of Queen Freila's disappearance had not yet carried to the ports. He did not know what to make of that, though it was likely a good thing. Taeghas was in turmoil enough without more news of Rjurikan upheaval.
Cathal gazed up at the stars through the Anora's rigging, his head fuzzy from whatever poison it was that Dolan had pulled out of the ship's bowels. It hit fast and hard and he had been staggering like a beaten pugilist by the time the sun began to descend. Dolan lay next to him, insensate on a bundle of sailcloth. The night sky spun above him, but he picked out the brightest stars and drew the constellations in his minds eye. There, the tower. There, the Siren. There Bolki, the thief who stole fire from the sun so Rjurik could live through winter. It reminded him of a time with Mara, it seemed lifetimes ago. A weight pressed down inside his chest; an oozing, cloying tinge. He swallowed and pressed it down.
And he thought of a song.
He had heard it on his first journey north, his mother's tears still damp on his cloak. The old captain of that ship had sung it for him to calm his nerves. Not a shanty, but a lament, and a ballad and an ode, all in one.
"For you, for you..." he whispered. His voice caught. It was an old song. An old Taeghan song that once had been known to every sailor and fisherman, or so the captain had said, but had long faded in memory. He cleared his throat.
"For you, for you I go my love," he sang. He heard some questioning noises from nearby crew members.
"Away away away," he continued, his voice slowly rising.
"Taeghan shores I know no more
Until my end of days
Cathal gazed up at the stars through the Anora's rigging, his head fuzzy from whatever poison it was that Dolan had pulled out of the ship's bowels. It hit fast and hard and he had been staggering like a beaten pugilist by the time the sun began to descend. Dolan lay next to him, insensate on a bundle of sailcloth. The night sky spun above him, but he picked out the brightest stars and drew the constellations in his minds eye. There, the tower. There, the Siren. There Bolki, the thief who stole fire from the sun so Rjurik could live through winter. It reminded him of a time with Mara, it seemed lifetimes ago. A weight pressed down inside his chest; an oozing, cloying tinge. He swallowed and pressed it down.
And he thought of a song.
He had heard it on his first journey north, his mother's tears still damp on his cloak. The old captain of that ship had sung it for him to calm his nerves. Not a shanty, but a lament, and a ballad and an ode, all in one.
"For you, for you..." he whispered. His voice caught. It was an old song. An old Taeghan song that once had been known to every sailor and fisherman, or so the captain had said, but had long faded in memory. He cleared his throat.
"For you, for you I go my love," he sang. He heard some questioning noises from nearby crew members.
"Away away away," he continued, his voice slowly rising.
"Taeghan shores I know no more
Until my end of days
The sky was dark and clouds pulled close
the day we sailed away,"
One of the sailors near him joined her voice to his. It was light and sweet, though her face was scarred and her bare arms were corded with sinew.
I searched the shores for you my love
but had to turn away
I had to turn away,"
More of the crew began to join in on the next verse, one by one, gradually. The captain, standing on the poop at the opposite end of the ship, joined as well, his voice a rough but pleasant baritone. Cathal's own voice boomed up through the masts and into the stars above. He wondered fancifully if Mara could hear him.
I had to turn away,"
More of the crew began to join in on the next verse, one by one, gradually. The captain, standing on the poop at the opposite end of the ship, joined as well, his voice a rough but pleasant baritone. Cathal's own voice boomed up through the masts and into the stars above. He wondered fancifully if Mara could hear him.
"Out from Islien we coursed
the rolling western waves
Until they filled the world below
As deep and dark as graves
O deep and dark as graves,"
Until they filled the world below
As deep and dark as graves
O deep and dark as graves,"
On the second chorus a full third of the sailors, even the topman, high up in the main mast, joined in the song. They sang together, in a single unified voice. The volume caused Dolan to stir in his stupor.
For you for you I go my love
Away away away
Taeghan shores I know no more
Until my end of days
Our broad bright sheets snapped and pulled
as they drank the wind
Up from Mieres and down from Thaele
Up from Mieres and down from Thaele
To send us to our kin
To send us to our kin
To send us to our kin
The storm it whirled above and through
the sleet it sliced like blades
But Taeghan sailors all were we
But Taeghan sailors all were we
and would not be waylayed
Ho! we would not be waylayed.
Ho! we would not be waylayed.
The captain called the bosun roared
but we all knew what came
We furled the sails and braced for hell
Taeghan to the grave
Ho! In Taeghas dig my grave
For you for you I go my love
Away away away
Taeghan shores I know no more
Until my end of days
We furled the sails and braced for hell
Taeghan to the grave
Ho! In Taeghas dig my grave
For you for you I go my love
Away away away
Taeghan shores I know no more
Until my end of days
For you each day I search my love
While peering o'er the waves
To you I will return my love
Before my end of days
Blue sky it broke through the clouds
And flinders all around
Blood and tack and shredded sails
Still northward we were bound
E'er northward were we bound
E'er northward were we bound
I've seen isles of ice, leviathans,
and dragons on the wing
I've sailed the rays of the sun
I've won Khinasi rings
I've faced seven deaths, taken lives
I've heard the Siren sing
But all these wonders, e'en more
To me mean not a thing
They never meant a thing
I've sailed the rays of the sun
I've won Khinasi rings
I've faced seven deaths, taken lives
I've heard the Siren sing
But all these wonders, e'en more
To me mean not a thing
They never meant a thing
The sea it calls to me my love
And every Taeghan heart
I thought, I thought for you my love
That we should have to part
For you, for you I left my love
I went so far away
Taeghan shores I knew no more
For countless horrid days
Now home, now home I sail my love
The winds follow my heart
And ne'er again, I swear my love
Shall we ever part
No, I'll die before we part.
The song ended with cheers and laughter. The crew of the Anora were Taeghan almost to a person, and that song had been one of the things that once bound their people, his people together. Perhaps it would be again. Cathal had stood during the song, and two of those who had first joined their voices to his had thrown arms over his shoulders and stomped out a rhythm on the deckboards. They slapped his back merrily, the scarred woman shooting him a not so coy glance, and went back to their posts.
Cathal turned back to his makeshift bed of sacks and rope, his heart lighter though there were tears in his eyes. Dolan snored, obliviously.
Cathal chuckled, shook his head, and lay down to sleep.
Cathal chuckled, shook his head, and lay down to sleep.